I’m feeling like the biggest hypocrite of them all right now and it kind of makes me really angry, I don’t like those qualities about myself. One minute I say one thing, and then I end up doing what I said I hated doing, or I wouldn’t do again. I need to change. Gosh this sucks… but hey, at least I’m truthful with myself. This isn’t a good way to live life. I need to practice what I preach. If I want to see a change my in myself, I have to be willing to make the effort. God, I’m feeling like such a horrible person right now. It’s like my conscious is eating away at me right now… I feel like I’m fake? I feel like this isn’t really me. I don’t want to be this person. I don’t want to do these things. So stop? Yeah well it’s not that easy. I mean it can’t be that hard?… Well, from here on out. I’m done. Changing for the better. Let’s hope this works… After all tomorrow is a new start, new beginning, new day.
